Dear diary,
I feel like life is fading from my body. I miss him so much and I’ll never be happy again! I should’ve done something to convince him to stay. I cry all the time, like a big crying baby and I’m not ashamed. And I just can’t forget him. I keep seeing him everywhere I look. Like when Edward came to visit and I thought it was him. Of course I was happy to see that at least Elinor could be happy, even though I couldn’t. I was trying very hard not to see Edward and to leave him alone with my sister whenever it was possible. Elinor deserved to be happy and I deserved Willoughby.
The one thing that made me excited and happy again was an invitation to go to London for a season. A few days after the invitation, I met Anne and Lucy Steele - or Anne and Lucy UGHHHH! I don’t like them. Not a bit. They could’ve been good company, and Lucy was very polite, but she was fucking engaged to Edward Ferrars! And she still wanted to have my sister as her best friend.

